Friday, June 26

14 seconds of fame

I'm sure you remember this video.

Click the link, and please, look at the amount of times this video has been viewed. It blows my mind.

Four websites besides this blog link to this video.

There are three pages of comments.

Rating: 4 and a half stars!

We've got a little celebrity in the house.

from the library

Whoa I don't really do all that well in the heat. I suppose the entire country is feeling a heatwave right now. I'm not alone. But yeah, been rather unproductive lately in regards to anythign requiring motion during the day.

However, I have been running for the past couple days. I go out to the forest preserve around 7:45 pm when it's cooling off. I found an owl in a tree out there. I took the night off last night, but will go back out tonight. I feel like I have an owl appointment. It does wonders...

Ate a bunch of watermelon yesterday, so that's a bonus in the heat.

Considering shaving Abra, give her a lion cut (keep the mane and tail, everything else goes) but ultimately deciding against it. Maybe her self image isn't that established still. She would be mortified.

Apologies for the scanty posts. Internet access has been hit or miss. Just realized the Downers Grove Public Library has free Wi Fi (and air conditioning) so expect more detailed posts in the future...

Monday, June 22

i might be wrong

It takes them about 1:30 to get it together, but it's well worth it...

Thursday, June 18

student for life

Two things I spend a lot of time thinking about are two things that I'll never completely understand: Chinese medicine, and Ju Jutsu. Really, these two things are variations on one endless theme, the human body.

Understanding is a big word. I have realized that I can only understand anything to a certain point, "my understanding" of it. Whenever I think I understand something completely, the universe finds a way for me to be confronted with how much there actually still is to learn. We can never really know.

This, for me, is encouraging. Through my studies of Chinese Medicine, and especially, of Ju Jutsu, I have had to learn how to accept criticism for what it is, help. I have had, and still have many teachers. They take so many shapes. Of course, they all have differing teaching styles with varying degrees of stringency, but what all the good ones have in common is a desire to help me (the student) improve. I am grateful to them for this.

There are hierarchies everywhere, and it's been a long road for me to realize and accept that I have a place in at least one, despite my preference for thriving just outside the system, mentally operating on the outskirts of the village, in the shaman's hut.

I have become a better student (and we are all students!) by realizing that accepting criticism, and suggestions, does not automatically imply that I was doing something wrong. It's easy to be offended or embarrassed when someone shows me a new way to do something, a way that could be considered "better" than the way I was doing it. Feeling defensive and upset about this situation has only served to close me off. How could I ever improve at anything if I remain stubborn?

This is not to say that anytime someone has shown me something, I have accepted it at face value and immediately changed who I was. This is no way to progress either, no way to improve understanding, no way to develop character. The difference between dogma and advice is the question WHY. If someone shows me a new way to do something, and they can tell me WHY it's actually more effective/safe/quick/whatever, I know it is something to consider, a potential to grow. If this person cannot tell me WHY the differences matter, then it seems to be merely a matter of preference or style, and no reason to change what I do.

None of this learning can take place if I am not receptive enough to receive the new information and then evaluate it. It can be difficult to corral the ego into admitting that another person might actually have more experience at something I identify myself with. If I refuse to even let new things in (due to whatever reason: impatience, my own dogma, fear, or simply embarrassment) I miss out. If I keep shutting things out, eventually people will stop knocking. This is a difficult lesson to learn, to get out of my own way. The world is full of people that want to help me, despite what the evening news might say. Most of the time, they are inspired by selfless generosity, and interest in my success. It's amazing when you think about it, the ways we share what we've learned, the ways we automatically try to help others.

Monday, June 15

worker man

I'm into my third week of professional acupuncturing. I'm not as busy as I'd like to be (busy = productive, not simply occupied) but I suppose these things take a little bit. As much as I enjoy the Zen aspect of life, I am still one of those people that sets goals, and then gets retardedly antsy when I have to wait on external forces to make them happen. Really, I'm waiting for the patients to come, so in the mean time, thinking of ways to get the word out more effectively, to encourage them. Trying not to lose too much time watching movies.

For sure, I'm no salesman. Fortunatley, acupuncture sells itself. So many people out there can benefit from what I have to offer, it's really a matter of educating them. Last week we had a marketing event at an elementary school, talking to teachers and fcaulty. After all this time, I'm still surprised at how much discomfort people simply live with, thinking there's nothing they can do about it.

It's easy to feel like there's nothing I can do right now. Feeling down about being bored, like I'm failing at this already. Today I realized that I'm not failing, I just haven't succeeded yet, which is a huge difference.

Monday, June 8

mind the gap

Apologies for the gap in writing. I've been very busy trying to keep myself busy.

That sort of thing is a surefire temporal headache waiting to happen, especially in this humidity.

Slightly grouchy, optimistic, but not all that much to report. My first week of working was great. I really enjoy my job, helping people, doing acupuncture, picking out herbs. It's amazing. I saw more patients than I had expected for my first week, but still not enough to keep me very busy, so I work on my own patience...

Speaking of minding gaps, which is what they say on the public transport in London when the doors open from train to platform, and a delightful British voice announces, "Mind the gap..." in the most charming way possible (as opposed to Chicago's "Doors closing!") that is when you know you've arrived. I sit in traffic on the freeway, and the Blue Line races past me. It's a shame that train doesn't go anywhere near my apartment or my job, but merely swings by to tease me as I roast on the asphalt with the rest of the people who forgot to not be on the freeway. But enough about trains.

Mind this gap. The statistical animations are fascinating/inspiring...